Fire

آری، آری ، زندگی زیباست زندگی آتشگهی دیرنده پا برجاست گر بیفروزیش، رقص شعله اش در هر کران پیداست ورنه، خاموش است وخاموشی گناه ماست سیاوش کسرایی / / / / / Life is like fire, can burns forever. If we turn it on we can see flame dances from far away, other wise its dark and thats our fault.

chegahdr bade adam ra ignor konand, va chegahdr man hersam megiree az in jaryan, fariba emgoft ke har chiee ke sare adam biad taghssere khodoeshe, be khoosoos raftari ke digaran bahash mekonand. shayadam man ziadi geer dadam vase hamine ke ignoram mekonand..... hata age adami khili khooshtipo nice bashee, hata age adam ham asheghesh bashee, ama engar nabayad ziadi zoor kard, yadame sare jaryane S bood ke megoftam, ashegh shodanke ejbari nist, va chon yeki adam ra dosot dare in dalil lazemo kafi nist ke adam ham oon ra doost dashteh bashee....namosaviee khili delshekani hast, ama khoob hast.
jalebish ham ineke na mosavi ha geeremoon miad.....
shayadam eshegh tooy namosavi hast, vagarne az bein meraft.
ama faght bayad yadam bashe ke eshghe yektarafe ra mesle kane beheh nachasbam, hata age khili hot bashee oon eshgh, hata age khili be entezaresh boodam, bayad havasam bashe ke bishtare omram ra saresh talaf nakonam.
"dar fekre too boodam ke yeki halghe bedar zad,
goftam sanama gheble nama balke to bashi, to bashi
khier nabini ke man mesoozam"
alabteh y not? omidvaram ke az zendegish lezat bebare.
farghesh ba man tooy yek chize mohemee, oon zendegish khoodeshee, ya be ebararte dige khoodesh darejeye aval ra tooy zendegish daree, va vaseye man baraxe, oon ( ya fardi ba chenan nami) baram dar darejeye aval ra daree, man zendegim va fekro khialam ra baraye oon gozashtam, fekro khialam ra , hafez ra, internet ra, hata most of these blogger ha ro, hata dars ham ro, hata astrologyim, va fale gahhvam ro , va saate par ro, ( khili adame khorafatiee shodam? ) shayadam in khili khoob boode ke ba ham doost nashodim va be jayee naresid, otherwise i would have been total gone, and it might have end up to a very heartbreaking broke up for me, and probably he wouldn't even bother. not becuz he is selfish and snoby, but only becuz he put him self first, and i'm totally gone in him. maybe if i don't want to be like maryam and those things happen for me, i should first find a dignity and then a bf. I should first stand up on my feet, and trust my self and my feeling and my personality, and love my self then, let soem one else enter my life, maybe al these opportunities are for me to find out about my self, my strength, my weeknees and try to work on them, and when i could have give a diffinition about my self, who am I and wat I want, and wat I love, then let some one else come to my life. I should first "sar reshteye zendegie khoodam ra be dast begiram" then that new comer won't want to play around , and change my life and who I am, but If i don't know who i am then How can I expect others to respect to this dignity?
and I'm not gone act like a loser who want to get ignore. not a loser even in a great luv. ( oonam luve yek tarafe!!!)
I'm not gone ask him for a freeking date for his Bday.
luv ejbari nist remember that baby jan, and be sure he doesn't care, be 100% sure, if he did, he would have answered u. or at least once he would have said hi. and he knew u likes him, u know that ey? so khoodet ra bishtar sange rooy yakh nakon.
no body said it was easyyyyyyyyyy
but i should have be able to make it ey?
i know my self, i got over alot of ppl, just becuz i wanted, and i knew tgose ppl, and this guy is just a cuty :)
I shouldn't NEED any person, I should be able to stand on my own foot.
No body have ever said it won't be that hard.
and i will nejoy my javani, but i won't be a kaneh! and I will find out more about my self, I gone put that as my priority for this sumer, so i can have a strong personality! or atleast i would know my self, and later step would be loving myself, then i would be a little more like him :)


TO my baby babay with love :)